Tuesday, October 31, 2006
posted by thee modern isis at 6:18 PM

I really didn't know that I was going to be taking an unexpected blogging hiatus but when that thing called life calls, it needs to be addressed. So playing catch up, alot of things have been going on.

The Ex, I guess we can call him Cee, he is back from Boston and here to stay. We didn't break up on some ol' "I hate yo ass so much right now" thing but we did break-up. I'm still cool with his mom, as a matter of fact, she is the coolest person I know. He wanted to see me and me being me, I was not about to get all dressed up for him. I had on the normal fitted jeans but with a big ass heather grey hoody and my college Adi.das flipflops. He came through and gave me a hug, I was already in the process of cooking so while I was doing that he thumbed through my DVD collection and put on the Seat Fille.r with Duan.e Martin and Kelly Row.land. Cute movie by the way. So we catch up on what's going on and of course my mindseye is going over every aspect of his body that I indeed loved. The deep chocolate skintone, (Taye Diggs complexion) and of course with that dark skin comes the whitest teeth that I have ever seen. A football players build cause of course that's what he played all his life and I somehow attract them, 6'1 height that dwarfs all of the 5'1 I possess. The close tapered hair with the goatee that somehow is crafted and molded onto his face. Mmm Hmm, not to mention he is still the touchy feely guy that I remember so ever so often he is rubbing my thigh, laying his head on my lap, rubbing my feet, etc. etc. etc. Of course a sista had to work early in the AM so I cut the visit short and he goes about his way.

Later that week Cee comes through again and we chill as usual, then I got to thinking about everything I remembered about this dude. My curiosity gets the best of me and yeah.. ya girl ended up waking up the next morning with a sore stomach and 3 condom wrappers on the dresser. LOL but man, I had fun. The last time we had sex, it was 3 years ago so you know I've learned a trick or 5 and got to show him things he couldn't even fathom. I'm mad cause I'm typing this and laughing my ass off. So he's still in Clevel.and and trying to get his self together from leaving Bost.on and periodically texting but there's no love like it used to be for him left in my heart. I was just curious, and after the *I lost count* times I got my stomach twisted, I'm good to go for now.

I have been working like Ceily in the field picking cotton and watching my back for Mister while taking these tests, research papers and quizzes for school. Ol' boy J is out of the picture, well as far as anything deep goes, I dubbed him "friend" in my mental rolodex and once dubbed friend, always dubbed friend. I am a cellphone packrat so I keep ALL numbers that I am given, true indeed the name that flashes when a dude calls might say "IGNORE DICKWAD" but nevertheless I keep the number. I've been getting called by some dude I don't even remember what he looked like. All I know is that I got his number when I went out to the bar one Saturday.

Dude: Hello? Can I speak to Tasha?
This is she, who is this?
Dude: This is Rome
Me: Rome?
Dude: Yeah, Rome.

Me: Um, and I know you from where?
Rome: *stumbling over words* I danced with you at the Ga.teway, I think it was your girl's birthday
Me: Ohhhhh, that was a minute ago and why are you just now calling?
Rome: *laughs off guard* Yeah it was, I've been working alot and just now got around to it.
Me: Mmm Hmm.. well, Rome was it?
Rome: Yeah
Me: Since I don't even remember what you look like I am going to hang up,k?
Rome: Damn, it's like that?
Me: *laughs and stops* Yes, One. *clicks*

The bad thing is, I'll give my number out.. if I answer is the determining factor. I HATE talking on the phone but will text message all day like it's going out of style. I've been playing phone catch-up with several people and trying to get these doctor's visits out of the way. So all in all, ya girl is still here and briefly scanning blogs while I work but have slipped on the blog posting tip.

I stay amused at work with the everyday hysterical happenings of Hot Choklet, the never ceasing to amaze me with his creativity T. Cas, the dark chocolate Mack Attack and him bringing Swagger Back Rob Mack, LOL @ all of that. The spurts of mindgasmic gisms that leave me at a standstill from Jus B. Flii, and my soul sister from another realm Trizz, since she's no longer on Blogger I tend to send her text messages or random shoutouts via Yahoo Messenger..a host of others that I do read but these are ones I usually jump to first beforehand.

Friday, October 13, 2006
posted by thee modern isis at 9:14 AM

1. Who was your first prom date? I was supposed to go to prom with my boyfriend Reggie. 2 months before prom we broke up and I decided I didn't want to go. A month later, I met Charles when I was at work. We talked and I explained to him that I had just got out of a year long relationship and didn't want to have another one at the time. He said that he would take me to prom.. we went and had fun.. after that we stayed together for about 2 years until I went away to college and was never around.

2. Who was your first roommate? This white girl named Katie. She was cool, he and her boyfriend went to Windsor Canada every damn weekend and when she wasn't out, she was sloppy drunk.

3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? Since my mother was/is an alcoholic, I'm good at mixing drinks. go figure. So I was looking online and got a recipe for some kinda drink that had chocolate milk and parrot bay. Me and the squad gathered some money.. went and got the stuff and started drinking mixed drinks along with smirnoffs. That shit was gross but I drank it. After that I remember wobbling to my dorm and not being able to get up on the loft, so I slept on the floor.

4. What was your first job? I worked at this ritsy restaurant called the Terrace Club in Jacob's Field. It was like a $500 membership for a year for the club members.

5. What was your first car? lol a 1992 Nissan Sentra. I bought that car before I had my driver's license because I knew it would only take me 1 try. Even though I couldn't drive it yet, I would go out and wash it. Be sitting in it just looking. lol

6. When did you go to your first funeral? Um, my first funeral that I really remember was when my grandma bee passed away on my father's side. We was in West Virginia and I remember seeing her laying in the coffin in a blue dress and asking my mom why she looked so mean.

7. How old were you when you first moved away from your hometown? My hometown is Fort Ord, California. I moved from there to Cleveland, Ohio when I was a kid. I can't remember the exact year.

8. Who was your first grade teacher? Funny thing is, I can't remember. I remember my kindergarden teacher Ms. Perry Evans and I remember my 2nd grade teacher Ms. Geter. First grade I had a crush on this lightskinned boy with pretty hair named Ishmel. He showed me his penis under the desk and I said "ew."

9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? First plane ride was from Cali to Cleveland.

10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? I can't remember. If anything it was probably to go chill with my girl Cat or if her brother Michael came to my door.

11. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with them? My first best friend was named Carshae. We were friends in 4th grade and then I transferred to Catholic School. Carshae and her family moved to California I heard.

12. Where did you live the first time you moved out of your parents house? I was in college when I moved out of my grandparents home. I moved to Toledo, Ohio.

13. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? My best friend L, or J.

14. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid or a groomsmen? I never got to fulfill that obligation.

15. What is the first thing you do in the morning? Turn the clock off and jump out of the bed. Click the lamp and walk to the bathroom.

16. What was the first concert you ever went to? My aunt's friend won Janet Jackson tickets over the radio so we all went to see her. MC Lyte opened for her. I was SO excited, I loved Janet.

17. First tattoo or piercing? First tat was when me and my girl Mia went to the tattoo parlor on our 18th birthday. Since my birthday is the 18th and her's is the 25th of February, her mother and sister took us on her birthday. I got a tigger bouncing on my shoulder blade. My first piercing was of course the initial ear piercing I got when I was a baby. After that I got my upper ears pierced, my navel and a tattoo of a artistic sun with a ying yang symbol on my pelvic bone. Some more are to follow after that, I want one on my lower back next.

18. First celebrity crush? lol Hakim Abdulsamad from The Boys. I remember jamming to the cassette my mom got me for my birthday. yeah, yeah corny I know. Little Known Fact - Did you know The Boys moved to Gambia, Africa and changed their names to the Suns of Light. The started putting out world, techno and african music and release it only on the internet? Some shit huh?

when people see me walking down the street
they mutter to themselves..

"she's too much .. I can't talk to her"
"she think's she's all of that"
"hmph.. look at her"

but just like a book .. located high on a shelf
if you never dare to open the cover
to curl up in a corner .. draw your feet up on the couch
and carress the delicate pages that are held within .. the hard exterior

one will never truly get to experience just how exquisite
.. profound
.. ethereal
.. surreal
just how good it really can be ..
unless. ..

you take the time
to reach high up
and select the book that you once figured was out of your grasp
and actually realized
it was exactly what you were looking for.


Wednesday, October 11, 2006
posted by thee modern isis at 9:25 AM

I stole this Meme from Trizz awhile ago and said I would use it for a rainy day, just so happens it's literally raining today.

* What is your salad dressing of choice? Raspberry Viniagrete

* What is your favorite fast food restaurant?

* What is your favorite sit down restaurant?

* On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? Honestly?
15-25% depending on the service

* What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of? Chicken

* Name three foods you detest above all others.
Lima Beans, Brussle Sprouts, and Liver

* What is your favorite dish to order in a Chinese restaurant?
Bourbon Chicken w/ fried rice and veggies

* What are your pizza topping(s) of choice?
beef, green peppers, and onions

* What do you like to put on your toast?

* What is your favorite type of gum?


* Number of contacts in your cell phone? 112

* Number of contacts in your e-mail address book?
Who has the time to count that?

* What is your wallpaper on your computer? I change it every month, this month it's Billie Holiday

* What is your screensaver on your computer? my little brother and nephew

* Are there naked pictures saved on your computer? I plead the 5th

* How many land line phones do you have in your house? one

* How many televisions are in your house? two; one isn't even plugged up.

* What kitchen appliance do you use the least? I use it all.

* What is the format of the radio station you listen to the most? I don't listen to the radio


* What do you consider to be your best physical attribute?
my lips.. or so I've been told

* Are you right handed or left handed? Right

* Do you like your smile?
yup, I just don't smile for pictures but forever laughing.. go figure

* Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
I stuck a pea in my nose when I was little.

* Would you like to? What? like to what? Stick a pea in my nose?
No thanks dawg, I'll pass.

* Do you prefer to read when you go to the bathroom?
Sure do. One time I was reading a magazine and stayed til' I was done. People thought I had left out of the house.

* Which of your five senses do you think is keenest?
Hearing.. I could hear a rat pissing on cotton.

* When was the last time you had a cavity? Never had a cavity.

* What is the heaviest item you lift regularly?
my briefcase.

* Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Nope, and God willing I never will.


* If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Nope, I wouldn't be able to function if I did.

* If you could change your first name, what would you change it to?
When I was little, I wanted to be named Kenya

* How do you express your artistic side?
I write and draw. I'm an aquarius- we're natural artists.

* What color do you think you look best in?
Any form of brown

* How long do you think you could last in a medium security prison?
C'mon now..
I can jump bad when necessary.

* Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? lol.. I'll just laugh that off and move on.

* If we weren't bound by society's conventions, do you have a relative you would make a pass at? Anyone that answers this question with a Yes, needs to re-evaluate some shit.

* How often do you go to church? Not as often as I should but more so lately.

* Have you ever saved someone's life? mentally or physically?

* Has someone ever saved yours?
My grandma; and I'm sure she'd never know it but she saved my mind.


For this last section, if you would do it for less or more money, indicate how much.

* Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000?
for $100,000 I'd do the chicken noodle soup dance naked *let it rain.. then clear it out*

* Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
Why not?

* Would you have sex with a member of the same sex for $10,000?
Depends on my role and if I'm drunk

* Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
I use to work at Home Depot and seen guys with 2 fingers. That shit ain't cute.

* Would you never blog again for $50,000? Sure.. I'm fairly new anyway.

* Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
Depends on what magazine it is and how many people subscribe AND if it's available on the internet

* Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? Sure.

* Would you, without fear or punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
Without punishment in the human life but what happens when I have to answer to God? Unless it's self-defense, I can't see it.

* Would you shave your head and get your entire body waxed for $5,000?
Ok, it has to be more then that.

* Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000?
I hardly watch it now as is.. besides Justice, House and football so I could pull that.
Saturday, October 07, 2006
posted by thee modern isis at 10:34 AM

Last year, I got rushed to the emergency room because I was found in the fetal position on the bathroom floor. My lower abdomen had been killing me and the pain was unbearable. After being in ER overnight, I was told that they didn't know what was wrong with me. Undergoing CAT scans, EGKs, abdominal ultrasounds, rectal and vaginal exams, IV pumps and etc... they still didn't know. The pain was persistent, so I went to another ER with the same symptoms. With that they told me that I had a UTI and of course, with normal dosages of cranberry juice and some pills could easily cure that. It went away soon.

Well all last week I have had the same problems. Me being me, I worked through it until I got to Thursday. I called off Thursday to just rest. My abdomen was in constant pain, to the point where it hurted to just stand straight. Thursday night I didn't go to class, I couldn't get myself to budge.

Friday I called off of work as well. Around 9:00 a.m. I drove my car over to the hospital emergency room and waited. Around 10:00 a.m. they saw me, when they told me all of the procedures I would have.. I called my family and had them come out. In the meanwhile, all of the exams before, I received them again. Vaginal and rectal exams, CAT scans, ultrasounds, EGK, doses of morphine and 3 IV's later they finally discovered something. Everything came back clear except the CAT scan. It discovered that I have uterine fibroids. Basically a benign tumor that's located in the muscle of my uterus. Possible surgery and whatever else they decide that I may need. Among that I have a mass in my liver, possibly hemangioma. A few doctor appointments are to follow this week that could tell me the result of my liver mass. The appt. for my uterus is in another week, until then I have to put up with the pain and take a 600 mg dose of Motrin 4 times a day.

As for me, when I'm not sleeping I'm doing schoolwork and laying out taking it easy. Alot of personal information I just revealed, but guess what? That's why I started this damn blog.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006
posted by thee modern isis at 7:44 PM

I want to include the rest of you in this game. Hit me up in the comments and say Truth or Dare. I will respond with a question or a dare and you can post yours either on your blog, or in my comments for my blogless readers. If you accept a truth or dare, then I will accept one from you, so keep checking back to see how I respond.Now, for some of you freaks out there, I gotta have some ground rules, so here are some suggested guidelines.

Let's not ask to see pics of each other (completely) naked. The idea is to get to know each other better, not embarrass each other.
~Ask interesting questions~
If you do a dare, it has to be something that can be easily shown by posting a pic online~
Let's not get crazy with the dares

So there is this vicious cycle of Truth or Dare coming around and being the "play it cool" person that I am, I decided to take Truth for both Trizz and Cas.

Trizz asked - "Tell us about your ideal man (include all necessities, dealbreakers, etc.)"

Through all of the relationships that I have been in, I have taken a thing or two from each person (be it jackass or not) and found something useful to either strive towards or eliminate all together. My ideal man has to bring something to the table, he has to be able to complement me. Where I am weak, he needs to be strong and vice versa. The ability to make me smile and laugh. He has to have a backbone because sometimes my sarcasm unintentionally cuts a little deep. I like a man that wears confidence like a well tailored suit, not to be confused with arrogance or conceit. Aggressive when he needs to be, but comfortable enough to let me run the show sometimes. Trustworthy, caring, charming, believes in chivalry and monogamy. Someone who treats me like a Queen and thoroughly realizes that without a doubt, I have his back.. it's only right if he is my King.

lol Cas mentioned something in a past post about a person's type. My type was -

  • athletic (football players)
  • tall (5"11-6"2)
  • short tapered hair
  • facial hair
  • lean build, or muscular
  • No particular complection (I've dated them all from white to night)

I have varied alot and have grown to look for things alittle deeper. Even though he still needs to be taller then me.. c'mon now.. I'm 5'1. The question was cut somewhat short, cause I could go on and on but I'll dwell on the more important things. Lemme see a dealbreaker... his voice.. I LOVE a deep, masculine voice.

Cas asked - "What was the stupidest thing you have ever done for love? "

lol I'm not sure if this qualifies for "in the name of love" but I was in the 11th grade and I wanted to go to the Class of 99's (I was the c/o 00') Grad Night. Yanno, Grad Night was when that class went to the theme park and it was open til' like 2 a.m. with other high schoolers but closed to the general public. Of course the guy I was feeling at the time went to an entirely different HS, and lived around the corner from my grandparents but it was something to get him alone, by himself with no adults. So I came up with a scheme. My grandparents were strict, so I convinced them that my best friend L was going and her mom was going to pick us up from the high school at 2:30 a.m. My best friend went but told her mom that my grandfather was going to pick us up. So we rode the bus to the amusement park, I'm all geeked cause I got to sit with Twin (my crush). We're walking and riding all of the rollercoasters, holding hands and giggling over all of the loser couples that wore matching outfits. lol Don't ask me where L was at this time, the only thing that really mattered was the fact that I was hugged up with one of the finest dudes. So we're getting ready to leave the amusement park and I hear a female's voice yell across the park. I'm looking at her march over towards the both of us and Twin kinda let my hand slip down to my side. She's going off about how they came together but he vanished, she had been paging him 911 left and right and couldn't get a call back. My mouth fell and of course I had to save face, so I pretended I was getting a "page" and it was my man. He looked at me sideways, I walked away all smug but my little heart was hurting SO bad. I finally got L and we got back on the HS bus. Well, since we both had told stories contridicting themselves, we didn't have a ride and we were stranded in downtown Cleveland at 3:00 a.m. with some damned stuffed animals while a bum in a trenchcoat was cooing like a pigeon and running in circles around us. We finally got some quarters and called her mom to come pick us up, while telling her that my grandfather forgot.

There you have it. *throws up hands* That's all I have man.. that's all I have!

Tenacious dared me to post a picture of J... that one dude and since I skimmed it and laughed out loud. I don't back down from dares since I'm a G.. so here ya go:

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posted by thee modern isis at 10:18 AM

I think I'm going to have to start blogging at night. They actually expect me to work during the day.. pshhh.

Even though I have a few things in draft form, i'll hit you all up later.

and lol@ this ..
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